Rishtay

'Woh jo kehtay hain na k rishtay pyar, muhabbat say chaltay hain; woh jhoot kehtay hain! Rishtay zidd say chaltay hain, zidd say...'

Alhamdulilah!

We have been blessed with a baby girl recently. Alhamdulilah for that :)

I miss her

Since she is not with me these days, I miss her a lot. Hope she comes back soon. :)

Shifting again!

Once again I have shifted to a new place, no it is not a different country this time but a new apartment. I wasn't hoping for this, but just had to. Took lot of time and effort during the weekend to shift all the stuff.

Things to do:

1. Buy some new furniture.

2. Settle and get accustomed to a new place.

3. Welcome my dear wife to this new place and make it as comfortable as possible for her.

And I hate shifting.

Changes

I wonder how I have changed as a person in recent years. At times I find it so frustrating that the things I used to hold so valuable are not that important to me anymore.

There is so much I have forgotten, and most of it is the memories I did not want to get rid of. Is it nature working its way and doing something I do not grasp at the moment or it is plain me, once again not able to understand me and changes that has affected my personality.

I am more flexible now I guess.  

After wedding.

I got married on 3rd September 2011. Just came back to Kuwait on 24th September. I still can't believe how quickly this time passed, my head can't register the reality that it all happened and I am back to this country all alone myself.

No

No, I do not like the way it is going. Insha'Allah It is going to be better. (Ameen)

Emotions, sharing and shapes.

In a contrast to usual perception, I do share things. I like sharing my thoughts, my emotions, in general my life with people I trust, and who I believe would understand me, appreciate me and give me a constructive feedback. Having said that, it is also true that I have always shared my stuff with more than one person. Like I have different avenues to shed my life stuff, based on personae I have assumed for different people around me. (and this shouldn't freak out any one of you, seriously)

There is always some sort of selection of events/stuff to share with, but usually it is a mixture of good and bad bits. The way I believe most of us are 'programmed' is; we take-in events, happenings, and our own thoughts as an input for our inner being, and then we decode them in to emotions to be transferred. 

To put emotions into a perception, I would like to give them shapes. Categorizing these emotions in to two forms i.e. positive and negative beings would help the case. Now if I really wanted to simplify this, and create a logical block diagram, I would have chosen a round and square shapes. But unfortunately, life is not that simple in my view. Either it be positive or a negative bit, both of them do not come in 'regular' forms. So let us say they come in 'uneven', irregular shapes.

Now while passing these uneven shapes, either the mode of communication or the container (next person) is not always capable to accept the shapes intended for the transfer. So in the transfer process or so called 'sharing', some of the rough edges are scratched off. With course of time, my own container fills up with so much of the residue that there remains no space for further emotions.

This is the situation I felt yesterday. I usually do get these every few months. So how do I deal with it? I try to consume those bits/emotions/energies to make room for new. I spend money, do things I don't usually do, eat out, eat a lot, do nothing and laze around, and most significantly, I stop 'sharing'.  

Life phases

I think I have learned to live with the circumstances encircled me since few good months now. I am no more angry with the way things are happening around me. I look it as a natural course of life, on which I as a human being have a little say.

This is possibly my phase of a resentment to a contentment. Not that I am out of ideas, thoughts, comments or plans for my life, or life around me, it is just that I would rather take a non-conflicting route keeping my sanity intact hence, ensuring day to day happiness :).   

Pepsi with ice

Do din hogye hain is mausam ki pehli 'coke with ice' piye. Abhi tek gala buht ziada kharab nahi huwa. Just wanted to record this event. lol

Lost of memories

Although the subject of the post may seem more dramatic but the lost of my precious USB memory stick is not of any less importance. I lost it as somebody broke into my car last night and don't ask me why I had it in my car. I had lot of backed up data in it, including received files, images, songs, and so many things I don't even want to remember now.

Anyhow its gone now, and my regular theory needs to be applied again: Everything happens for a reason!

P.S: I had already lost most of my previous backed up data while updating OS of my laptop :/

Hamari generation

Itna aasaan asool pata nahi logou'n ko samajh kion nahi aata? Akhir ab aisa bhi bhala kia bura hai hamari nasal mai? Akhir hum aisa bhi kia ker rehay hain jo hamarey barou'n ko buht nagawar guzarta hai?

Sochnay ki baat to yeh hai keh hum jo kertay hain, woh hum kion kertay hain. Hamie aise kernay per kon uksata hai? Hum yeh sub kahan say seekhtay hain?

Meray nazdeek to kisi ki shaksiyat ko bananay mai sub say ziada kirdaar uskay maa baap ka hota hai. Yeh maap baap k fara'iz mai shamil hai bachoun ki parwarish kerna, unki zarortien puri kerna aur unki shaksiyat ki tameer kerna. Jo log aaj yeh shikayat ker rehay hain keh hamarey bachay aisa nahi kertay waisa nahi kertay, unko sochna chahiyeh keh unho nai apnay bacho ko kaisa mahool faraham kia jab keh unke zehn kachay thay? Kia kabhi sirf islye TV off kerdia k bachay dekh rehay hain? Kia kabhi songs band kerdiye islye k bachay sun rehay hain? Kia unke samnay namaz adaa ki keh woh bhi seekh sakien? Kia kabhi apnay ghusay per qaboo kia keh bachoun per kia asar hoga?

Yeh woh sub batien hain jinper hamarey aam gharano mai kabhi socha he nahi gaya. Hamarey haan samajh lia gya hai k maa baap ka farz sirf bacho ki roz-mara zaroriat ko pura kerna hai. Taleem-o-tarbiyat school keh asaatzah per chor di gyi hai jinko aik class mai 40-50 bacho ko perhana hota hai, Islam ki taleem masjid k maulvi per jo sirf Quran perhna sikhata hai aur rehi sahi qasar TV aur Internet puri ker deta hai.

Aise mahool mai mazeed kia tawaqu ki jasakti hai hamari nasal say?

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