confused??

Haan probably I should put these kinda posts on this blog only. I wanted to write about the recent flooding in southern Pakistan and the political scenario in the Palestine which is certainly very distressing but once again couldn’t find enough concentration to do so, and hence as a branded mean person, here comes another post just for myself.

It’s 11:20 a.m. and I am leaving for the site from our office in Qusais. I have just signed a leave application which is lying on my table at the moment, it will take lot of mental energy for me to take that to the OTHER room for approval but the first step has been completed and it’s a relief. Recently, most of my spare time is spent thinking about my role in the company and if that is really what I always wanted to do. Somehow my immature mind can not comprehend and process all the good related to this job either available to me yet or can be foreseen in the future but the constant state of discomfort I am facing these days makes me depressed and miserable most of the times which in turns makes me not to answer work phone or reply emailsK.

Everyday I plan to move but move where? I have checked possibilities with Canadian immigrations, work visa for UK which all seems very encouraging but when I think about it seriously, these are the places I left and decided not to live for good, then how come I am planning to go back!. Kuwait seems to be place where I CAN live but again possibilities of finding a job are really slim with my little industry experience. I don’t know what I am running from, either I’m home sick(after living five years away from family?), or I just don’t like my job, but there is certainly something of not my liking. At this time of my career I can not afford to make any wrong choices. I do acknowledge that my decision to move Dubai was a haphazard and something like that once again wouldn’t me wise of me for certain but …

Anyways plan for Pakistan! Meri cousin ki shadi hai na on 21^st! which I don’t want to miss:$ and hopefully this will give me some time to think calmly about what’s going around.

Arghhh how come my blogs turning into pure ranting these days: @ :’(

nikamma blogspot

I hate blogspot for sure! yani k kal mai itni mehnat say phir blog likha, well once again car mai, yani k successive two blogs in three days! kal hi maine aaker POST kerdia, it did not come to the page straight away, mujhey laga baad mai aajaye ga jaisa k hota hota hai kabhi kabhi, even it was there on Dashboard, maine gher jaaker apni word file delete kerdi, trusting this stupid blogspot to aaj kia dekhta hun k na hi post aayi hai, and na hi woh dashboard per hai :@:@:@ aisa yani k ho hi kaise sakta hai ;'( and mujhey ab yaad bhi nahi aareha k maine likha kia tha...laiken it was certainly something interesting, better than what i have been posting recently, kia musibat hai na :(