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bad me , yes me bad, i want to smile but i cant, i want to breath and all i can do is fake, i like to be happy and make people happy around me,i fail and i fail again, it happens to me every year, may be thats what they call self development? or is it just me again? all that money i have lost in recent weeks and the weeks to come i can see, the worries are increasing and solutions are getting to nil, may be all of us just dont work logically here, and well who knows if the logic is the best way to follow, haan i made mistakes and well there is no way out, but hold on, lemme think, whats the lesson? isnt it the same lesson i learnt a year ago? what was that again? dont TRUST, is it? but how come it is always me who trust people around and get knacked straight into head and people doing all sorta wrong stuff get away with it, oh right damn they all clever gits aye, im the dumb one right:( no need to feel sorry for myself! its just me :) have to live with it and pray...yeah pray:)